Unyielding Questions (5/2011)

I put on this strong face,
When everyone can see.
But they have no clue
What's going on inside of me.

I can't do it much longer,
Acting like I'm so strong.
All these doubts and questions
Make me feel so wrong.

Who am I to question you?
You made me and created me,
You love me and care for me,
But  I just wish you'd show yourself to me.

Show me where to go, what to do --
Just give me a sign.
I can't do this myself,
I know you're my lifeline.

But with all of these questions,
With all of these doubts,
How can I trust you,
How can I see what this is all about?

I'm overwhelmed by fear,
Weighed down with questions.
Each time I doubt you,
I feel like I fall into sin.

Why can't you show yourself?
Reveal yourself to me!
I'm sick of talking to air,
Begging to something I can't see.

Every night I pray,
But I hear no reply.
Do you even stop and listen,
Or do you just pass on by?

Silent Love (9/2011)

Have you ever been silently in love
With someone you can never have?
So close you can touch her hand,
Yet so far to feel her heart?

Have you ever lived in pretense,
Quietly loving without condition?
A feeling of love that's unknown:
Hiding it, not knowing for how long.

Have you ever fallen so deeply,
Loving the person unconditionally?
So afraid to say what you feel,
Acting normal, keeping things still.

Have you ever been hurt unintentionally,
But put on a smile and pretended to be happy?
Deep inside you're in pain and suffering,
But outside you're jolly and laughing.

Why does holding her hand feel so right?
Your heart smiles every time she's in sight.
Hearing her sweet voice makes your day:
Only she can make you feel that way.

Secrets of My Heart (9/2011)

Why does my heart still hold on to you
At every waking moment, in everything I do?
Why do I have to see your face all day
And if you knew, what would you say?

My heart breaks in two when I see him with you,
And I think to myself, what didn't I do?
I wish I could somehow turn back time
And relive the days when you could've been mine.

I wish no one ever had to know
The feeling of lovesick pain from head to toe,
Like someone rips out your heart and tears it in two
And sit back and watch is all you can do.

In my dreams you say those words I long to hear,
And when I look in your eyes, I know you're sincere.
So I'll see you later when the day is through:
When I'm asleep at night, dreaming of you.

Every Time (9/2011)

Every time I see you,
I want you more and more.
Every time you say "Hi" to me,
My heart begins to soar.

Every time you touch me,
I pinch myself to see if I'm awake.
Every time you look into my eyes,
It's my heart you begin to take.

Every time I see you smile,
I wish that it was at me.
Every time I hear your voice,
I regret that "we" just could not be.

For the truth is . . . he likes you
So I must take the backseat.
He has so much to offer
And I simply cannot compete.

For since we are good friends,
I could never take you away.
So, I will look at you with a tear in my eye,
Hoping for the day . . .

When you'll finally be mine,
And I can hold you by my side,
And my deepest feelings
I'll no longer have to hide.

Change (9/2011)

Can you solve for me a mystery
Of why things have to change,
Why live is so complicated,
Why thing's can't stay the same.

I understand that people grow,
And often grow apart.
But why did it have to be you
When I had given you my heart?

I hold inside my feelings,
Never telling you how I feel.
But I need to tell you somehow
That I know "us" could be real.

You have a special something
I just can't figure out.
But I know that we could work:
That's what love is all about.

I'll keep my feelings to myself,
I just can't let you know
Because of what will happen:
You'll change and then you'll go.

If Only You Had a Clue (9/2011)

You can walk right past me
And you don't see a thing.
I walk by with a smile,
But inside my heart's aching.

And I wanna know
If I mean something to you.
I want you to be able to see
All my feelings are true.

I want you to see me,
But what am I supposed to do?
If you can't, and you won't...
If only you had a clue.

I walk back and forth
Just to see your smiling face;
I see you standing there
And it's you I yearn to embrace.

I can feel your heart beat,
But you're still so far away.
One smile from you
Brightens up even my darkest day.

I want you to see me,
But what can I do?
If you choose not to...
If only you had a clue.

Hidden Window (8/2011)

Passion burning deep in my heart,
Wishing that we were never apart.
Coming together, hand in hand,
Melted and pressed like grains of sand.

Shaping a most beautiful pane of glass;
Etchings abound and trimmed with brass.
A beautiful display, wanting all to see;
Yet remains hidden and sheltered, only for me.

Broken Dreams (7/2011)

I love you more than life itself,
But I'm afraid to love.
My heart is like the fragile wings
Of a tiny little dove.

I'm scared to get too close,
I know I cannot win.
You'll love me for a little while,
Then set me free again.

I've lived so long on hopes and dreams,
I don't know what to do.
I don't think I can trust my heart,
For it belongs to you.

I know you'll only hurt me,
Yet I'll always run back.
Between the paths of our hearts,
There's a one-way beaten track.

You've got my heart on a string
And it's breaking right in two.
Enough belongs to me -- to hurt --
The rest belongs to you.

I pray that somewhere in your heart
There is a place for me.
I just don't know how to find it,
And there's no way to make you see.

I can only hope that someday
You'll wake up and you'll find
That while my heart belongs to yours,
Yours, too, belongs to mine.

If I Could (7/2011)

If I could catch a rainbow,
I would do it just for you.
And share with you its beauty,
On the days you're feeling blue.

If I could, I'd build a mountain
You could call your very own;
A place to find serenity,
A place to be alone.

If I could take your troubles,
I would toss them in the sea.
But all these things, I'm finding,
Are impossible for me.

I cannot build a mountain,
Or catch a rainbow, true.
But let me be what I am best:
A friend who's always there for you.

If I Were to Fall in Love (6/2011)

If I were to fall in love,
It would have to be with you.
Your eyes, your laugh, your smile,
The things you say and do.

You take me to places
My heart never knew.
So, if I were to fall in love,
It would have to be with you.

If I were to give my heart,
It would have to be to you,
For you bring things into my life,
So beautiful and new.

Love so soft and warm beside me,
That I know it's true.
If I were to give my heart,
It would have to be to you.

I was looking for an answer,
I was looking for a way
To keep the magic that you bring
To each and every day.

To live our lives together
As only lovers do.
It started with a feeling,
And every day it grew.

So, when I knew I was in love,
It had to be with you.