How I Feel (7/2009)

It's so hard to not tell you
The way I feel inside:
Every time I'm around you,
It's my heart I must hide.

I keep it to myself,
In fear of what you'll say.
My soul couldn't bear it
If you didn't feel the same.

A tear hits my pillow
Because my heart is in pain.
It is only your love
I truly wish to gain.

Now it's another's
Eyes you look in,
When you smile and tell him
You're going to let his love in.

I tell you I'm happy for you
And put on my best smile.
But all I really want to do
Is go and think for awhile.

Your friendship is undeniably
The most precious thing to me,
But please don't be afraid
Of what we could be.

In time it's possible
I may let all of this go,
The day may cease
When I can finally let you know.

Until then, as always,
I'll still be your friend;
My love for you
Will never end.